I am afraid to leave the house, to leave the phone. I am always waiting for that appointment. Waiting to find out how bad things are going to be for my family.
I have allowed myself time to search for information and freak out nightly after the kids go to bed. This scheduled time allows me to do normal stuff during the day.
I spend a lot of time looking up the specialist in Mt. Sinai.
The good news: Dr. W is considered to be one of the best in his field.
The bad news: His field is osteosarcoma. Bone cancer.
The good news: His team has a great survival rate – no hospital in the world has a better one.
The bad news: Fucking bone cancer. Survival rates.